Well I went back and read this post. And I can honestly answer the question: NO. I keep attempting some sort of tug-o-war. You know what? Its not a game. Its not supposed to be a struggle. Little by little -I have faith I'll get better (although a big break through would be quite welcomed!)
I followed up reading this one.
Hmmm. Seems I've been here before. Traveled this path. What's the parable? Going around and round the same mountain. ???