I'm seeing myself lately. (could be the purpose of Him waiting on me??)
The physical self. The face that people see. I'm not sure I like the face of me lately.
I love how peoples spirit shows through their face. The glow. The LIFE. That contagious spirit that reaches out and touches anothers heart.
When I see me in photos and mirrors: I see-- pasty- dim - muted - overcast- sickness. I'm not sick... it just looks that way. In fact I get comments alot lately "Oh- geez. You don't look like you feel very good! Are you sick?"
That always helps my fragile, over sensitive, nerve exposed ego. I then collapse into a weeping heap. (just kidding- I do the weeping heap routine in private)
I think this two year APhD (Adoption PhD) path- has consequently put the basic -self -care -taking -care -of -me -and -my -health at the bottom of the 'priority list'. I eat pretty well... most of the time (what.. you didn't know Tim Horton's Honey Crullers are GOOD for you!?!?!). But the running out of time in a 24 hour day leaves spending time out side exercising.... well... it just left.
My face already bares that "November North" look. You know the one... lack of Vit D- Complete Depletion of all UV rays and a poisonous level of recirculated dry heat air combined with shakey inside lighting combine to afflict the patient with "Florescent Gloom Syndrome". This combined with residents reluctance to pull out warmer clothing- results in complete lack of normal exposure to fresh air, social activities, or any PrimeTime TV. (I mean.. geez... it' been completely dark for 4 hours by that time! It's time for bed already.)
4 comments:
You are so close Mama! Deep breaths, lots of water...fesh air every day! (even if only 15 minutes) maybe take some vit D and omega 3*6*9? All I know sweet lady, is that there is a haggard-ness that comes along with the expectant mama/new mama glow. they kinda go hand in hand. Its ok....he's going to see and feel your overwhelming love for him and no matter what you look like you will be magic in his eyes!
enjoy your stroll♥
I know what you mean about the life and color going out of our skin and eyes. Being indoors wears on us. I need to force myself out as well. In fact, it's 1pm, and I am still in jammies. At least I dressed and bathed my children right? Take care of yourself dear!
I know just how you feel...pasty, dim and muted here too!
I look like that most of the year - I'm SOOOO pale most of the time. There's maybe 1 month at the end of the summer that I have a slight tan and look somewhat "healthy". Sorry you're feeling like blah!
Thanks for the post about our baby girl - we are so happy. I knew that about surnames too...in her case though, the surname she was given is actually her moms 1st name...not her dads (due to circumstances in their family). I thought it would be nice for her to have her moms name and our family name...along with her new name, Isabella. Anyway, I'm blabbering now. Hope you had a great Thanksgiving holiday!
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