- That re reading my adoption books, makes me remember my bad parenting moments and adds evidence to my being an ever growing pile of Sh*t for a parent.
- That re reading my adoption books has solidified that I'm definitely noticing red flags and we need to get to attachment therapy as soon as possible
- That needing to go to attachment therapy is currently my primary motivation for finding a new career/job
- That re reading my adoption books shows me all the things we've done properly, despite the heavy burden of the microscope I put the two of us under.
- That regardless of how much I need breaks- or how much I need to work on things without him on my lap- on those rare days he's not here, I come to the verge of tears about 400 times.
- That taking/receiving breaks provides me the opportunity to have a little perspective- see his needs- my needs- what is missing- how far we've come- where we have left to go- and how we are going to get there.
- That by "re reading" I mean- using the index and hitting the highlights cause who the heck has time to read more than a paragraph or two at a time?
- That this post was supposed to publish last Friday but some fluke by blogger (or user error) prevented it from doing so.
4 comments:
Shannon, I love these honest Confession posts because I see a lot of myself in there. You are doing so great and are too hard on yourself...Your boy is beautiful. btw, were you at ECC at the weekend? I thought you were but I didn't get to meet you.
Shannon, I love these honest Confession posts because I see a lot of myself in there. You are doing so great and are too hard on yourself...Your boy is beautiful. btw, were you at ECC at the weekend? I thought you were but I didn't get to meet you.
Sorry to hear about the stress. I hope things look better soon. :-) He looks so much older in that picture. He is growing fast.
I so so so get this post. I too have to revisit attachment issues all the time. I wrote a post about it. I get the career change. i get it all. Therapies do work and I have found great results with slight and big shifts in my behavior/routines. You're doing great by revisiting and being committed to do right by your beautiful boy.
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