Tuesday, June 23, 2009

How many more times?

Today I needed to start redoing my Home Study paperwork. Approval clearances from Motor Vehicles, Criminal Background Check, Child Protective etc etc. Each with a check written out to some random official state office. Been there. Done that. About one year ago- so it's all familiar.

I knew a year ago, that I'd be doing this again, but at the time, I thought for sure I'd have a referral or a child in hand (i.e. on hip) by then. I'd want to keep my home study current, out of choice to adopt or foster again. The fact that it would be required .... is a little discouraging.

Mostly though, it leaves the simmering question- Will I have to do this again this time next year? With empty arms?


9 comments:

Heather said...

oh! I'm sending a big hug your way today...

Unknown said...

Me, too...I'm doing tons more paperwork than I imagined, too! :)

Sending you much love...

Sha Zam- said...

Thanks Ladies. You're the best!

Bonnie said...

aarrgghhh - I hate paperwork! I can't imagine how hard this round of it is for you! hugs!!

Mrs. Engelhardt said...
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Mrs. Engelhardt said...

remember doing the paperwork, and feeling so empty. Listening to the lady taking my finger prints go on and on about how happy her daughter was with her newborn grandson, and imagine reaching over with my free hand and smacking her. I know it's hard to believe, but once you get the child in your hands (hip) you'll forget all about the paper work. (The wait, too!) Really.

Evelyn said...

I hope not! Hugs...

hazel said...

Ugh, there's nothing good about redoing p/work. NEXT TIME you WILL have a baby on your hip (right after you sign the acceptance form, visa application form, etc etc etc)

Adopting1Soon said...

Why don't you switch agencies? Eat the losses, take out a loan, whatever is needed. A child is needing you and this sounds like it's taking WAY too long. My heart hurts to read it's been over a year for you :-(